With the help of my cohort and master teacher I'm learning that it is ok to be nervous and doubtful of myself as a teacher, it keeps me on my toes, but what matters is what I do with the nervousness and doubt. I had a... epiphany the other day, and these don't happen much but, I'm a teacher who has doubts about being able to teach even though I already teach but haven't at the level I now want to teach at. Follow that? Hah! And there is this thing called knowledge that coupled with learning can erase doubts and fears. So in the next eight months I am going to try my harest to learn and know about teaching and my students to erase some of those doubts and fears. Though I do have a feeling that no matter how much I learn or know I may always have that dream where I forget my clothes (only in my underwear) on the first day of school. Yikes!
I still want to know how I juggle all the important things in teaching, knowing my students, helping them learn and building an engaing fun classroom community. I'm excited to get to know my students! I'm still nervous about the copier in the staff lounge. It is really big, gray and ominous looking with many, many buttons.